What the fuck. Screw this. Davey is officially pulled from the role play by me. Explain it however you want to.

I'm thinking about staying. I stll have no internet, so I don't know when I'll be on again.

P.S. I'm still pissed.

Everyone, Jade and I would like you to meet Porcupine.



Porcupine is a Japanese Spitz. :] This is what they look like all grown up:



AREN'T THEY ADORABLE!?

Dr.SummersDr.SummersDr.SummersDr.Summers.

I really, really need the ashes for those shower curtains.  It's important... Really, really important. Like... You have no idea.

And Jadey, I know this bugs you, but... I need them. :/ I wasn't kidding. I was starting over with you and... They mean a lot to me. I need them. I just... Really need them. I know you don't understand, but try? :/

I'm in love with this.

This is me coming back. I'm feeling better. At least I think I am. I should be. I am.

I missed you guys.

Porcupine... Haha. I love that name. But I love the man who came up with it more.

Sorry I've been disappearing lately, guys. I'm... I don't know. :/ I haven't really been feeling well and things haven't been easy. I think I need a different prescription because this one's not working anymore.

Maybe I just need Jade cuddles.

I think I need to talk to a doctor. :/ Preferably Dr. Summers, I think his name was. Whichever one is the one who has been through what a lot of us have. Please, it's... Important.

Someone wake me up and tell me it's only a nightmare.

Bert, I need to talk to you. You don't understand. :/

Self portrait in MS Paint, haha. I got bored. I'm one sexy little pixelated bitch.

So I think someone needs to come visit me. I'm lonely.

Jaaaade, where are you? Bert, where are you too?

Do you remember when things used to be like this?

There.

I'd like to share a part of myself with you all. A part that only one other person here has been privy to. I'd like to explain why I was brought here. And then I thought to lighten the mood perhaps I'd show you pictures of what I used to be when I was happy.

First thing's first. Nikkolai. I loved him more than I loved my own life. I met him when I was seventeen and he beat the shit out of some kids that thought they were being punk picking on the short, gay, girly kid. We hit it off pretty fast and we started dating not too long afterwards. I'm twenty-five now and I was with him until a few months ago. I devoted eight years of my life to the same man. He cheated on me. After that I tried to kill myself and it landed me here. I couldn't deal with it. Everything just seemed to unreal without him. Eight years of my life had been thrown away in a few moments. We got in an argument and he left me for the guy I caught him with.

And as stated, here I am. Now, to lighten the mood, pictures.

Since Bert took the liberty of posting pictures of me putting on makeup with my hair up and whatnot, feast your eyes upon him being a dork. :]

Things are better now. I can't say that I've completely forgiven him. I haven't, and honestly I'm not sure if I ever will, but I'm content with how things are. I miss how things used to be. I still want him. But maybe, just maybe we can come to some sort of agreement.

You know, I trusted you. I gave you something I've only ever given to one other person. How could you do this to me?

I'm sick and confined to my room. I think i might be going crazy. Jeffree is sitting at his mirror as always, but he seems worse today than he normally is. He's crying because the things he sees are telling him he's hideous. I sort of feel sorry for him, but my head just won't stop aching... It feels like it's about to explode and he isn't helping in the slightest.

I saw a star beneath the stairs
Glowing through the m e l t i n g walls
Who will be the first to begin their fall?
Or will we become one?

Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I the ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?

I saw a star beneath the stairs
Glowing bright before descent
And in the morning there is nothing left but what's inside of me.

Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I the ghost upon the stage, am I your anything?
Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I the ghost upon the stage, am I your anything?

And I don't want to die tonight; will you believe in me?
And I don't want to fall into the light

Will you wish upon?
Will you walk upon me?
I don't wanna die tonight

Will you believe in me tonight?
Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I the ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?
Am I the star beneath the stairs?
Am I the ghost upon the stage?
Am I your anything?



I'm lonely. :/

Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is cheating. No cheating, please!